Phone Call with My Cat

February 27th, 2009

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I had a very long phone call with my cat. I asked for her forgiveness for leaving her, & she forgave me. I love you, Miamo.

Twins 双生

February 26th, 2009

今天早上的梦大概是我做过的最困扰的梦了。梦里,我有一个双胞胎姐妹。我们如此相像,好像一个人一样。然后她不知道怎么死了,不是被杀,就是死了。不知掉为什么,我不希望别人知道她死了。好像我们其中一人死了是我的过错一样。所以我把她剁成三大块装进一个崭新的黑皮箱里。我把皮箱藏在了一个公共的储藏室。一切都显得那么理所当然。我妈妈也知道这件事,我们俩试图隐瞒她的死。我每隔一天就装作她,让人们以为她还活着。一周以后,我怕别人会在储藏室找到那个箱子,准备把它扔掉。我打开箱子,尸体已经腐烂成红色粉红色的粘稠的骨头汤的样子。我试图在箱子上蹭点土,好让它看上去不那么新。然后我就拖着箱子去往弃史地点。最后我被一个警察拦下。原来我在拖着箱子在城里走的时候,没有注意到,尸体已经从箱子里掉出来了。

现在回想起来,我不确定是我的双胞胎姐妹死了,还是我死了。

The dream I’m about to write down is probably the most disturbing dream I had. In my dream this morning, I had a twin sister. We look so much alike, almost like the same person. Somehow she died, not murdered, just died. For some reason, I don’t want other people know that she’s dead. I felt almost like it’s my fault that one of us died. So I choped her off into 3 parts & packed her into a brand new black leather suitcase. Then I put the suitcase in a public storage room. Everything felt right & proper to me. My mom also knows about this & we try to keep the secret. I pretended to be her every other day so people will think she’s still alive. But after a week, I’m afraid people will find the suitcase in the storage room. I decided to dump it. I opened the suitcase. The body has already got rotten into red pinkish thick bone soup. I tried to rub some dirt onto the new suitcase so it won’t be noticed. Then I started dragging it across the streets to the dumpping place. Finally I was stopped by a police. Because I didn’t notice the body had fallen out of the suitcase as I dragged it along the city.

Now when I think about the dream, I’m not sure if it’s my twin sister that died or it was me.

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今天早上我梦见我在一幢巨大的假资本主义式富丽堂皇恶俗型大楼里,发现了一家叫“少年宫”的专门设计生产解放初期风格的家具的陈列室。虽然这些家具做工低劣,但我还是想,一定要买。更何况这家叫“少年宫”!

This moring I was dreaming wandering inside a huge fake  capitalism-style cheesy splendid building. I found a show room of a furniture company called “Children’s Place”. They design furniture with a early Chinese liberation style. Although the workermanship is shabby, I still wanna buy some pieces. Plus their name is “Children’s Place”! (I had some evil thoughts about this name before)

Dream Log 梦记录

February 7th, 2009

I have a dream log on my head board. There’s no pen with it. I write my dreams on the notebook in my dreams. No pen.

在我的床头有一本梦记录 ,边上没有笔。我在梦里在笔记本上记录我的梦,没有笔。

One of my favorite place in my dreams is the Temple of Unknown Buddha. It’s right next to my kindergarden and run by an old grandma. I’ve seen her alot of times in my dreams but never know her. The temple is small but long. You’ll need to go deep in the temple to see the buddha. I never know what buddha he is. He seems to be not one of those top level buddhas but more like a middle level buddha. The temple is really simple, without any decoration. But I always feel there’s some secret hidden behind the temple, in the back rooms where I’ve never been to.

我梦里最喜欢的地方之一是未名佛之庙。它就在我的幼儿园边上,由一位老太太主持。我在梦里见过她很多次,但是从来不认识她。庙很小但是很深。你需要一直走到庙的深处才能看见佛像。我不知道他是什么佛。他似乎不是那种最高层的佛,更像是一个中层的佛。庙很简单,没有什么装饰。但是我总是觉得庙的深处那些我没去过的后厢房里藏着秘密。

I always feel my life path is becoming something like a monk (somehow I don’t like the word nun). Maybe what I want to be is just like that grandma in the temple.

我一直觉得我的人生路就是慢慢地接近和尚(我不知为什么不喜欢尼姑这个称呼)。也许我想变成的就是庙里的老太太。

Dexter Stradegy | Dexter 策略

December 25th, 2008

Well, in my dream the other night(one or two month ago), I was determined to fight a group of gansters myself. Being a small asian girl, I had to find some smart way to put them down. So I got a seringe with 2 needles, one big, one small, filled with venom. I went to their back & gave them a sweet shot seperately. One guy even thought it’s some kind of drug & shot himself.

那天我做梦(大概有一两个月前了),我决定自己干掉一帮流氓团伙。身为一个弱小的亚洲女性,我必须找到一种放倒他们的聪明办法。所以我找了一个带有两个针头的针筒,一个大一个小,里面装满了毒液。我从他们身后进攻,给他们每人都来了一针。有一个家伙甚至以为这是什么毒品,自己拿去给自己打了一针。

the Arctic ocean 北冰洋

August 18th, 2008

昨晚我和MORO去了北冰洋旅游。正好遇到一队冒险家坐热气球去北冰洋,我们就脑子一热跳上了最后一个热气球。

I went to the Arctic ocean with Moro last night. We met a group of adventurers travelling to the Arctic ocean by fire ballons. & we hopped onto the last ballon on an impulse.

到了那里,听说最近刚死了一个人。他在收到一台没有玻璃也没有镜子的黑相机后神秘死去。一想那台相机,就让我不寒而栗。

After we got there, we heard one man just died. He died mysteriously after he received a black camera with no glass no mirrow.  I tremble at the thought of that camera.

白天MORO解梦说,那相机不就是针孔相机么。大惊,MORO现实中对摄影的了解居然比我在梦里的水平要高。

When Moro tried to explain my dream, he thinks the black camera is just a pinhole camera. I was very surprised to find out his knowledge about photography in real life is more than mine in dreams.

海豹餐 Seal Dinner

August 12th, 2008

何宇婧的一位高大广东男同学自己烧了一盘海豹餐。邀请我吃。我就对朋友说,“我们一起吃吧,我挺想尝尝的,你帮我壮壮胆。”那只海豹浑身黑的油光发亮,肥肥的身体自己爬进盆子里。

 One of my friends’ friend invited me to his own cooking, Seal Dinner. I said to my other friend, “Come eat with me. I’d like to try it. I’d feel better if you eat with me.” The seal’s fur is shinny oily black. He pulled his fat body into the big bowl himself.

Dreams I had 2

June 7th, 2008

我经常做的另外一种梦是打人(或者动物)的梦。过去都是我打人耳光,但是怎么打都手上无力,很窝囊的。后来我慢慢好点了,可以用比较重的拳脚打人了。后来发展到用武器打人,还有动物,什么榔头啦,刀啦。不要以为我很暴力,其实我打的都是坏人哦。也许这体现了我的极端控制欲?

Another kind of dreams I alwasy have is beating somebody (or some animal) up. I used to slap other’s face in my dream, but I was always powerless. My hands were soft when they fell on the skin. Later on, it becomes little better. I get more power when I beat them up.  Now I can use weapons in my dreams to hit people or animal, like hammer or knife, etc..

Actually, I’m not that violent. All the people/animal I hit in my dreams deserve it. Maybe it shows my extreme will to control things?

Dreams I had 1

April 17th, 2008

我的梦里面的一种,家里的墙壁后面,壁橱里面,或者地板下面有暗道。进去以后就是很长很长的隧道,好象要通道世界的另一端。今天看电视才注意到,我一看到暗道就心头一酥。

One kind of dreams I always have was about secret passages. There’s some secret passage behind the wall or in the closet or under the floor. After I entered, it’s a long long tunnel, almost to the other end of the world. I just noticed today that whenever I see secret passages in TV, I feel shiver down my spine, a pleasant one.